God, I miss you. Never have I felt feelings so strong. We went to see you today. Lighted some candles. Brought flowers and incense. Said the rosary. I can't look up to see your name on the cross. I break down. Throat becomes tight and my eyes water. But I can't cry. I need to be strong for the people who've really lost you. You're such a beautiful woman and I'm sorry I didn't tell you enough when you were with me.