'Oh, These Times Are Hard. Yeah They're Makin Us Crazy, Dont Give Up On Me Baby'

     I love The Script, they write music about life, love and rejection. Their music really speaks to me. This is a piano cover of the song  'For The First Time' by The Script. The actual song does not sound quite as sad as this piano cover. When I first heard it, it brought back memories of this dark place in my life that I never really got over.

     It was a few years ago, I was severely depressed. I couldn't eat, sleep, or even think properly. I remember alot of crying. That was all I did, just cry. Cry to sleep, cry to get up, cry in the shower. I was in a bad mood all the time and I didn't feel like doing anything at anytime. It was so bad that I can still remember the smell of the soap that I was using during that time. I now associate that smell with feeling depressed. I have since, stopped purchasing that soap. 

   

     That period of depression really changed me. In good ways and bad. I'm now, much more optimistic about life and its outcome. Granted, I'm not a flaming bright ball of fun and joy, but I appreciate more, I live in the present, instead of trying to go back to an irreversible past to change it, and most importantly, I love more.

  Close your eyes
   Take a deep breath

   Its gonna be okay

          Peace.          

I Admit

Are you afraid?
Afraid of spiders?
Afraid of the dark?
Afraid of heights?

What about imperfection?
What about failure?
What about incompetence?
Are you afraid of these?

I am

Afraid of knowing that I'm not good enough,
Afraid of knowing that I'll never be good enough,
Afraid of always being second best.

Doubt,
In confidence,
Self loathing,
Been there,
Done that.  

I'm scared, 
I'm lost, 
Help me find my way out, 
Help me get out of my own head. 

Help.

'Defeat never comes to any man until he admits it.'
I admit.

A Letter To Add Maths

Dear Add Maths,
Why do you torment me so?
Cant you just leave me alone?
Don't you see that I just don't want to be told,
To find your x,
To get the relation,
To even understand what a quadratic function with a minimum point and y-intercept is,
Stop bossing me around or
I'll set you on fire,
Literally.

                                                                                                      Yours truly,
  
                                                                                     

Glee - Trouty Mouth

Naya Rivera is amazing. FIRST, her voice is fantastic! SECOND, she sang THIS song with a straight face. Woah man.

Santana: This is a song that I wrote for Sam, its called trouty mouth

Sam: Wait, what's its called

Mike: Trouty mouth

Here are the lyrics so you really understand what she's saying
Guppy face, trouty mouth
Is that how people’s lips look where you come from in the South?

Grouper mouth, froggy lips
I love suckin’ on those salamander lips

Wanna put a fish hook in those lips so cherry red
If you tried hard enough you could suck a baby’s head