Saturday, March 31, 2012

Joe Brooks - Someday


This is Joe Brooks.
He's my latest obsession.


He's got the wickedest accent and is SO cute. Oh gosh, he makes me feel like a girly girl. Like an innocent, lipstick wearing, handbag swinging girly girl who still believes in soul mates and true love (and Santa).

All his songs are about naive teenagers chasing after that ever elusive 'perfect love'. Doesn't it just make you smile that there ARE people who still believe in it?  :D 

I'd just LOVE him if it wasn't for the Bieber hairstyle. Oh well... :)




I suppose I should thank you...

...for not inflicting any physical damage. No hitting or beating or slapping or pinching. I suppose I should be grateful that YOU didnt leave any visible brusing. Thankfully, scars fade. But, memories do not. The pain you caused me hurt more than any beating - crying infront of you simply made me feel pathetic. So can you tell me how many sleepless nights Im going to spend reliveing those memories?

Jackass.

That was the term you used for me. Can you remember? Probably not. If Im such a nusance for you, why didnt you drop me down a flight of steps when I was a baby? Why dont you push me down a flight of steps now? It would save you time and money and save me heartbreak.

Im glad you're back
What made me say that? Why did I? The events that unfolded on Friday contradicts that ludicrous statement. I have cried many tears because of you and cut deep because of the things you say.

That wall I vowed I'd build is crumbling,
My claims of strength and indifference are lies,
My sarcastic exterior is but a mask,
To hide all the wounds,
But its nothing time and sleeping pills cant heal.

It would be too easy to blame you,
No, I blame myself for getting too comfortable,
It's my fault,
It's all my fault.

So I suppose I should thank you?

Saturday, March 10, 2012

In This Dream I Was A Serial Killer

I rarely dream. If I do dream, it's usually a nightmare - something horrible will be happening to me. I'd be chased or drowning or falling. Today I had another bad dream, but nothing horrible was happening to me. No. In this dream I was killing people.

Yeah, I know it doesn't sound very scary - but you weren't the one dreaming it. It was unusually vivid, although I'm having trouble remembering the details right now. It started out like this.

I was renting out my house to people and families who were on road trips and needed a place to spend the night. It wasn't a very big house, it had the normal stuff like bedrooms, a kitchen, bathrooms, living room and a very dark hallway from the front door to the dining room. So in come this family - Married couple with kids, but i cant remember how many. We had dinner and talked before they went to sleep. It was rather late I think, and it was raining. I was walking up the stairs to sleep when I saw the husband walking out of his room. I grabbed his torso from behind with one arm and slit his throat with a kitchen knife. One clean cut.

There was no scream - He just fell to the floor. I remember I was smiling when I went into the room where the rest of them were sleeping. But I didn't kill them. I told them instead to leave, and so they did. That was the first.

After that I don't remember how the rest ended up in my house, they just did. One by one I killed them. There was this one woman, late twenties I think. She was at the door of her room when I covered her mouth from behind and slit her throat. It was always a clean slit to the throat. No scream. Always the same kitchen knife, medium length with a brown handle - Almost like the one in my actual kitchen. After every killing I would clean the knife and keep in the pocket of my shorts.

Then the scene changed.

I was at my aunt's house. Everyone was there. We were celebrating something, Christmas I think. We were in the living room and I was walking to the kitchen. I put my hand into my pocket and the knife was there, covered in blood. I pulled my hand out of my pocket and my hands were dripping with blood. Then I woke up.

Weirdest dream ever.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

What? Why? How? *Dies*



W.T.F.?

I should just quit piano, join a convent on a mountain and take a vow of silence.

Haha...Not




Thursday, March 1, 2012